It's the age-old dilemma. I have an event to go to tomorrow, and suddenly realized I have NOTHING TO WEAR. How this is possible when I have a closet full of clothes, I don't know.
The real issue, of course is that I have nothing to wear that I feel attractive/comfortable/good in. Carrying way too much extra weight and not having all that much success recently with my weight loss program, the clothes that I seem to prefer would look good on a 125 lb woman but not on ME.
The look I love is something clean, feminine, professional, chic and sophisticated. I'm not out to look like I'm 22, but I want to look like a woman of a certain age who has her act together, both smart AND sexy (smart IS sexy!) This is a writer's conference. There will be editors and agents and publishers there, as well as many, many aspiring and experienced writers. It's located in Manhattan. So the fashion look I most love is perfect for this setting... except that the look I love does not love ME.
When you're overweight, it's hard to like how you look in ANY clothing, no matter how much you spend or how much effort you make to dress to accent your assets and camoflage your bad spots.
Nonetheless, I am going to go out today and make an effort to find just one fabulous-looking ensemble that will give me the sophisticated city-girl/successful writer look I'm going for, and that is still going to be comfortable to wear for an entire day in New York. It will not be fun, this shopping ritual I'm embarking on. Shopping is never fun for me at this weight. And I don't have a lot of time in which to do it, either, because I have some business calls to make this afternoon. I am trying to go into this with a good attitude but it's not easy. The last time I went clothes-shopping I managed to get myself pretty psyched up about it, and just as I was on my way out the door, my mother said "Don't buy anything CLINGY" (she is delusional about what she thinks is being "helpful") and I was completely deflated by the time I got to the store.
Pray for me to find the perfect outfit - something I can feel confident in and like I will "fit in" with this crowd. Who is the patron saint of fashionistas, anyway?
